Something in your eyes

I don’t know what I’m going to type nowadays
When this happens, normally I playing a music to help get the ideas flowing


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Long time not see ya~
Long time i didn’t receive your message
I miss seeing your name show up on my phone

How’s life bro?

Have you found your enjoyable life that makes you keep yourself busy for it all?

Busy that makes you very useful, be a very useful human

As I did before

Remember? I’ve already told you ‘bout the real of life activities

Which makes you so meaningful

Do it for the sake of it

As I did before

And you do it now

Is it because of me?

It’s out of box

Life is a fast treadmill, I keep reminding myself, run or fall.

From now on, you had found your campus life,

I called it extraordinary campus! The best ever in here maybe, haha

Even i was envious you’re being there

But i proud and delighted for it

And sure ya, it simplies word that you could get so many great people easily

The new atmosphere, the new people, even a someone who’s also new: She!

I imagine a girl (she) who has more talent. A girl (i couldn’t say it women wkwk!) who can always cheer you up

Eventhough i always trying to be like that (But NO in the reality, just intend, i was too geeky for it all) or be a same degree (ability), or more high with you

It’s too late, she had come. I know it clearly, because i’m your stalker right now, haha

But, no. I’m okay. It only hurts a lot.

I would still be a distinct girl, who doesn’t be “lebay” like some girl outside -_-

I wouldn’t cry because of you bro!

Just be a professional.

Distance creates longing

Time rises expectations

Hope you feel like at home in the new place, with new atmosphere and also new people

My feelings?

Oh, don’t worry about those. No one else does.

It caused by me too, I’m too storing my deep feelings so you can’t know it clearly.

I formulate infinity and store it deep inside of me.

It starts in the end of that year...

You’re still had your eyes on me,

Had been seeing my activities

Try to be a dumb stalker who always known by me

I know you’re trying to be stalker! What a fool man you are. Dumb!

I dunno whether you intentionally makes me know that you’re a dumb stalker or what (?)

But it occurred to me that maybe you were thinking the same thing as I was

Unfortunately, it happened in the past..

It feels like we just met yesterday,

I still remember the past..

...the way you wearing your eyeglasses

...the way you strumming ups and downs your guitar (and at the same time i wanna sing beside you)

...even, the way you laughing my childish

Hey, don’t you know that my largest hobby is sing?

Yeah, i have just been singing for you bro. Do you know what’s song title that have just been being sung by me?

“Taylor Swift – Back to December”

Uhm, ya. That December!

Nowadays, I don’t know how’re you, what happened with you, and what’re you doing on the night like this.

Hey, don’t you understand?

No! You don’t understand at all

Always. I hide these feelings to myself because it’s hard for someone to understand

Even i never spread these feelings to anyone including you!

I hide my feelings it doesn't mean don't want to get hurt, it simply means I'm afraid of what you will think.

Don’t you know? Sure you don’t know all of it

I was very underdressed to be here

I needed to leave, and quickly,

But I didn't know how to say goodbye

Thanks for being there,

For giving me chances,

Forgiving my faults,

For being a good listeners and someone to share.

And also be a good (best best beeeest) friend ever to me

But, one thing that you should know, maybe i don’t have those feelings again

Because...

The feelings that hurt most, the emotions that sting most, are those that are absurd

All these half-tones of the soul’s consciousness create in us a painful landscape, an eternal sunset of what we are

It’s all words i have to you. Describing all my feelings is pretty much impossible.

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NB: Originally made by me. Sejelek, se-gajelas, dan sengaco apapun tulisan ini, tetep dilarang menjiplak, memperbanyak, bahkan menjual. Kalo ada yang mau nerbitin atas nama penulis ya gapapa.